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06:00 am: so we're going to try not not trying
To my shock, Peter has expressed interested in having another baby.

Also to my (lesser) shock, Teddy is particularly interested in having a brother (given his gravitation to little girls, I thought he'd want a sister; of course, I'm not sure he knows the difference between brothers and sisters).

So Peter and I are going to stop trying not to conceive. The chance that I'll get pregnant is very low, and my company's health plan no longer covers fertility treatments. So it's unlikely that you'll be reading about a new addition here, unless we decide to pursue adoption.

But it'll be interesting, anyway. I hope we can enjoy the fun parts without getting weighed down by the virtually-inevitable and perpetual disappointment.

Everyone I've talked to seems to think this is a fabulous idea. These people apparently have shorter memories than I. My pregnancy was not fun, though of course it was absolutely and completely worth every minute (and every bit of sickness and every insulin shot and every other unmentionable misery).

I'm 44, folks. The human body was not meant to have babies at this age. But if I can have one more miracle? I'll take it.

Current Location: Boston
Current Mood: nervousnervous

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From:occhi_cinesi
Date:October 31st, 2007 01:48 pm (UTC)
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"The human body was not meant to have babies at this age. "

Ah, but you've always said your body was not normal. And we've seen how 'not normal' it is.

So welcome to trying not to not conceive. Whoohoo!!!!!!!!! My little one will have a few more siblings! Oh boy (or girl)!!!
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From:katehaney
Date:October 31st, 2007 03:55 pm (UTC)

Your optimism is wonderful

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Probably ill-founded, but wonderful. :)
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From:jenches
Date:October 31st, 2007 11:27 pm (UTC)

Re: Your optimism is wonderful

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awesome! i love reading your teddy journal. i know it's a little biased with the source and all, but you sound like a wonderful mother. any additional kids would be lucky to have you.
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From:katehaney
Date:October 31st, 2007 11:44 pm (UTC)

Thank you!

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Your opinion means a lot to me, so thanks!

I doubt we'll be so lucky twice, but I guess it's worth a shot. As long as Peter's willing to continue being a SAHD, I'm willing to endure 40 weeks of discomfort.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:November 1st, 2007 12:08 pm (UTC)

44?

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All pregnancies are not the same -- my (biased) opinion is that if you can just enjoy the fun parts and forget the outcome altogether, the surprise will be delightful either way. YoMaMa
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From:katehaney
Date:November 1st, 2007 12:53 pm (UTC)

Yes, 44

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Thanks. I don't think I'll get pregnant. If I do, I hope to embrace the joy and ignore the barfing.

It's the trying (or not not trying) that worries me right now. I don't want to get hung up on not being pregnant. Despite knowing it's unlikely we'll get lucky twice (especially without medical help), I'll be disappointed if we don't succeed.

So we'll do a 'xperiment. If it's too stressful, we'll go back to trying not to.
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From:wendymarques
Date:January 4th, 2008 01:17 am (UTC)

Holy Crap

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Man, I really really have to do a better job at keeping up. It has been MONTHS and I miss out on all the fun, cool, interesting stuff going on in all your lives - and holy cow - how exciting would it be if you did indeed conceive again. I wish you the best of luck on not not-trying.

Ok - another New Year's resolution is to keep up with your blogging so I don't miss out on any other exciting Haney household activities!
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