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05:30 am: Stress
When I'm stressed out (like, say, NOW), I wake up in the middle of the night to write lists in the hopes that doing so will keep me from spinning myself up into orbit. I'm usually able to get to sleep again after I get what's in my head out on paper. If I can't get to sleep again and it's more than 4 hours before I need to wake up, I take Benadryl. If it's less than 4 hours? That would be the ugly. The current ugly.

I also get very sensitive and prone to emotional outbursts. I'm an absolutely fabulous parent, lemme tell you.

When Peter's stressed out, he becomes cynical and sarcastic. Or as I've been affectionately calling him, a dickhead. Lots of criticism of my ideas/plans/reactions, very few suggestions of his own ("fuck off" is not as helpful as he seems to think).

When Teddy's stressed out, he morphs to Sir Cling, King of the Clingdom of Clingmeisters. The snuggles are cool, but the insistence that he can't walk ("my legs don't work!"), sleep alone ("I'm loooonely!"), or feed himself ("I neeeeed you!") gets really old, really fast.

He's also been exerting control through toileting. That's just wicked fun (ok, Peter's not the only sarcastic one in the family). He'll dance around, holding his bottom, and say that he does not have to poop. We'll tell him it's fine to poop in his diaper, or that we'll help him on the toilet, and he'll insist that he. does. not. have. to. POOP! EVER! And when we finally convince/wrangle him to go to the toilet, he'll insist that there's! still! poop! he's! not! done! ("It takes me a little time, Mommy!")


A colleague who moved recently is having the reverse problem: His daughter is insisting that she needs to go all the time. Before they leave the house, she'll have a WID*, then two minutes after leaving, will insist she has to go again. So they go back home, or stop someplace, and she sits on the potty again. Repeat endlessly.

I know it's a control thing. I expect regressions with sleep and toileting. That doesn't make it any less stressful.

I wonder if I'll recognize normal when I see it.

* When In Doubt. As in, always go to the toilet when given the opportunity.

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Date:October 8th, 2008 01:09 pm (UTC)
WID is a lifelong concept--although perhaps appreciated more in one's latter years, when many things, but not all, are waning. Sorry about the list-making. I do that, too, but am no longer remember them the next day. Ah well.

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Date:October 8th, 2008 05:21 pm (UTC)

I don't remember them either

Which is why I have to get up and write things down.

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