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07:33 am: stymied
I can't do comments in Facebook today, and I'm feeling thwarted. I can't even comment on myself!


And I'm in an early-weekend-morning-no-brain-to-use type o' mood, which really lends itself well to short, supposedly witty little comments, not to profound blog posts.

Not that I've ever, in my entire life (or even the 5 years since I've been blogging), written a profound blog post.

But still.


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I have been reading and thinking a lot about ambiguity lately. Mostly because my latest, huge-ish, work project has more than its share. It's moving from 95% ambiguous more toward, I dunno, 80% ambiguous, but still... lots of uncertainty, lots of unknowns, lots of winging it, lots of assumptions that we'll get things wrong. And I'm not used to that. Most of my projects have maybe 50% ambiguity, but it's a 50% with which I've dealt many many times before, so I can predict fairly accurately where things will go awry. (In other words, 50% predictable ambiguity. And that's pretty close to an oxymoron, if not entirely.)

So of course I've ordered another Pema Chodron (Comfortable with Uncertainty) to try to help me work through it.

(I'm fairly sure I have a Shopping Issue. Not shoes or clothes or groceries or even music. Books. There are just so many things I want to explore, and online shopping - particularly with free two-day shipping that I meant to cancel but now have for the year - makes it so very easy to enable myself. Must get back to using libraries, but I'm about 30 years out of practice. Oy.)

So, yeah, gonna work on it. Embrace unknowing. Get comfortable going with the flow. Planning and re-planning. Being wrong.

I can plan and replan like whoa, but I'm not so good with the being wrong and the unknowing. I didn't get 35 years of education to be clueless.

OTOH, I have learned that the more I learn, the more I learn how much I don't know, so I ought to be pretty comfortable, right?



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Date:May 23rd, 2010 02:49 pm (UTC)
I've mostly conquered my book shopping by switching to swaptree.com--you list the books/CDs/DVDs you want, you list the books/cds/dvds you are willing to trade, they find matches, all it costs is postage. As B is fond of saying, it's pretty much space neutral, too--something goes out for everything that comes in.
It means actually *getting rid of books*, which was painful, but has actually made life easier--I have space on my bookshelves! crazytalk!
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Date:May 23rd, 2010 09:46 pm (UTC)

get rid of books??

Good heavens, woman! What are you saying????

Crazytalk indeed.

I think I need a drink.
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